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What had next brought him back, clearlythough after how long?was Mrs. Muldoons voice, coming to him from quite near, from so near that he seemed presently to see her as kneeling on the ground before him while he lay looking up at her; himself not wholly on the ground, but half-raised and upheldconscious, yes, of tenderness of support and, more particularly, of a head pillowed in extraordinary softness and faintly refreshing fragrance.  He considered, he wondered, his wit but half at his service; then another face intervened, bending more directly over him, and he finally knew that Alice Staverton had made her lap an ample and perfect cushion to him, and that she had to this end seated herself on the lowest degree of the staircase, the rest of his long person remaining stretched on his old black-and-white slabs.  They were cold, these marble squares of his youth; but he somehow was not, in this rich return of consciousnessthe most wonderful hour, little by little, that he had ever known, leaving him, as it did, so gratefully, so abysmally passive, and yet as with a treasure of intelligence waiting all round him for quiet appropriation; dissolved, he might call it, in the air of the place and producing the golden glow of a late autumn afternoon.  He had come back, yescome back from further away than any man but himself had ever travelled; but it was strange how with this sense what he had come back to seemed really the great thing, and as if his prodigious journey had been all for the sake of it.  Slowly but surely his consciousness grew, his vision of his state thus completing itself; he had been miraculously carried backlifted and carefully borne as from where he had been picked up, the uttermost end of an interminable grey passage.  Even with this he was suffered to rest, and what had now brought him to knowledge was the break in the long mild motion.

It had brought him to knowledge, to knowledgeyes, this was the beauty of his state; which came to resemble more and more that of a man who has gone to sleep on some news of a great inheritance, and then, after dreaming it away, after profaning it with matters strange to it, has waked up again to serenity of certitude and has only to lie and watch it grow.  This was the drift of his patiencethat he had only to let it shine on him.  He must moreover, with intermissions, still have been lifted and borne; since why and how else should he have known himself, later on, with the afternoon glow intenser, no longer at the foot of his stairssituated as these now seemed at that dark other end of his tunnelbut on a deep window-bench of his high saloon, over which had been spread, couch-fashion, a mantle of soft stuff lined with grey fur that was familiar to his eyes and that one of his hands kept fondly feeling as for its pledge of truth.  Mrs. Muldoons face had gone, but the other, the second he had recognised, hung over him in a way that showed how he was still propped and pillowed.  He took it all in, and the more he took it the more it seemed to suffice: he was as much at peace as if he had had food and drink.  It was the two women who had found him, on Mrs. Muldoons having plied, at her usual hour, her latch-keyand on her having above all arrived while Miss Staverton still lingered near the house.  She had been turning away, all anxiety, from worrying the vain bell-handleher calculation having been of the hour of the good womans visit; but the latter, blessedly, had come up while she was still there, and they had entered together.  He had then lain, beyond the vestibule, very much as he was lying nowquite, that is, as he appeared to have fallen, but all so wondrously without bruise or gash; only in a depth of stupor.  What he most took in, however, at present, with the steadier clearance, was that Alice Staverton had for a long unspeakable moment not doubted he was dead.

It must have been that I was.  He made it out as she held him.  YesI can only have died.  You brought me literally to life.  Only, he wondered, his eyes rising to her, only, in the name of all the benedictions, how?

It took her but an instant to bend her face and kiss him, and something in the manner of it, and in the way her hands clasped and locked his head while he felt the cool charity and virtue of her lips, something in all this beatitude somehow answered everything.

And now I keep you, she said.

Oh keep me, keep me! he pleaded while her face still hung over him: in response to which it dropped again and stayed close, clingingly close.  It was the seal of their situationof which he tasted the impress for a long blissful moment in silence.  But he came back.  Yet how did you know?

I was uneasy.  You were to have come, you rememberand you had sent no word.

Yes, I rememberI was to have gone to you at one to-day.  It caught on to their old life and relationwhich were so near and so far.  I was still out there in my strange darknesswhere was it, what was it?  I must have stayed there so long.  He could but wonder at the depth and the duration of his swoon.

Since last night? she asked with a shade of fear for her possible indiscretion.

Since this morningit must have been: the cold dim dawn of to-day.  Where have I been, he vaguely wailed, where have I been?  He felt her hold him close, and it was as if this helped him now to make in all security his mild moan.  What a long dark day!

All in her tenderness she had waited a moment.  In the cold dim dawn? she quavered.

But he had already gone on piecing together the parts of the whole prodigy.  As I didnt turn up you came straight?

She barely cast about.  I went first to your hotelwhere they told me of your absence.  You had dined out last evening and hadnt been back since.  But they appeared to know you had been at your club.

So you had the idea of this?

Of what? she asked in a moment.

Wellof what has happened.

I believed at least youd have been here.  Ive known, all along, she said, that youve been coming.

Known it?

Well, Ive believed it.  I said nothing to you after that talk we had a month agobut I felt sure.  I knew you would, she declared.

That Id persist, you mean?

That youd see him.

Ah but I didnt! cried Brydon with his long wail.  Theres somebodyan awful beast; whom I brought, too horribly, to bay.  But its not me.

At this she bent over him again, and her eyes were in his eyes.  Noits not you.  And it was as if, while her face hovered, he might have made out in it, hadnt it been so near, some particular meaning blurred by a smile.  No, thank heaven, she repeated, its not you!  Of course it wasnt to have been.

Ah but it was, he gently insisted.  And he stared before him now as he had been staring for so many weeks.  I was to have known myself.

You couldnt! she returned consolingly.  And then reverting, and as if to account further for what she had herself done, But it wasnt only that, that you hadnt been at home, she went on.  I waited till the hour at which we had found Mrs. Muldoon that day of my going with you; and she arrived, as Ive told you, while, failing to bring any one to the door, I lingered in my despair on the steps.  After a little, if she hadnt come, by such a mercy, I should have found means to hunt her up.  But it wasnt, said Alice Staverton, as if once more with her fine intentionsit wasnt only that.

His eyes, as he lay, turned back to her.  What more then?

She met it, the wonder she had stirred.  In the cold dim dawn, you say?  Well, in the cold dim dawn of this morning I too saw you.

Saw me?

Saw him, said Alice Staverton.  It must have been at the same moment.

He lay an instant taking it inas if he wished to be quite reasonable.  At the same moment?

Yesin my dream again, the same one Ive named to you.  He came back to me.  Then I knew it for a sign.  He had come to you.

At this Brydon raised himself; he had to see her better.  She helped him when she understood his movement, and he sat up, steadying himself beside her there on the window-bench and with his right hand grasping her left.  He didnt come to me.

You came to yourself, she beautifully smiled.

Ah Ive come to myself nowthanks to you, dearest.  But this brute, with his awful facethis brutes a black stranger.  Hes none of me, even as I might have been, Brydon sturdily declared.

But she kept the clearness that was like the breath of infallibility.  Isnt the whole point that youd have been different?

He almost scowled for it.  As different as that?

Her look again was more beautiful to him than the things of this world.  Havent you exactly wanted to know how different?  So this morning, she said, you appeared to me.

Like him?

A black stranger!

Then how did you know it was I?

Because, as I told you weeks ago, my mind, my imagination, has worked so over what you might, what you mightnt have beento show you, you see, how Ive thought of you.  In the midst of that you came to methat my wonder might be answered.  So I knew, she went on; and believed that, since the question held you too so fast, as you told me that day, you too would see for yourself.  And when this morning I again saw I knew it would be because you hadand also then, from the first moment, because you somehow wanted me.  He seemed to tell me of that.  So why, she strangely smiled, shouldnt I like him?

It brought Spencer Brydon to his feet.  You like that horror?

I could have liked him.  And to me, she said, he was no horror.  I had accepted him.

Accepted? Brydon oddly sounded.

Before, for the interest of his differenceyes.  And as I didnt disown him, as I knew himwhich you at last, confronted with him in his difference, so cruelly didnt, my dear,well, he must have been, you see, less dreadful to me.  And it may have pleased him that I pitied him.

She was beside him on her feet, but still holding his handstill with her arm supporting him.  But though it all brought for him thus a dim light, You pitied him? he grudgingly, resentfully asked.

He has been unhappy, he has been ravaged, she said.

And havent I been unhappy?  Am not Iyouve only to look at me!ravaged?

Ah I dont say I like him better, she granted after a thought.  But hes grim, hes wornand things have happened to him.  He doesnt make shift, for sight, with your charming monocle.

Noit struck Brydon; I couldnt have sported mine down-town.  Theyd have guyed me there.

His great convex pince-nezI saw it, I recognised the kindis for his poor ruined sight.  And his poor right hand!

Ah! Brydon wincedwhether for his proved identity or for his lost fingers.  Then, He has a million a year, he lucidly added.  But he hasnt you.

And he isntno, he isntyou! she murmured, as he drew her to his breast.

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