Not in the subtle nourishment of the air
Not in this beating and pounding at my temples and wrists,
Not in the curious systole and diastole within, which will one day cease.
Not in many a hungry wish, told to the skies only.
Not in cries, laughter, defiances, thrown from me when alone, far in the wilds.
Not in husky pantings through clenched teeth.
Not in sounded and resounded words — chattering words, echoes, dead words.
Not in the murmurs of my dreams while I sleep.
Nor the other murmurs of these incredible dreams of every day.
Nor in the limbs and senses of my body, that take you and dismiss you continually — Not there,
Not in any or all .of them, adhesiveness ! pulse of my life !
Need I that you exist and show yourself, any more than in these songs.
7.
Of the terrible question of appearances.
Of the doubts, the uncertainties after all.
That may-be reliance and hope are but speculations after all.
That may-be identity beyond the grave is a beautiful fable only,
May-be the things I perceive — the animals, plants, men, hills, shining and flowing waters.